Really some people need to grow up

So I was dating this women but she acted more like child. Well I guess I would say it was more of a friends with benefits type of deal. And I had this friend who was just my friend well of course I introduced them to each other cause I wanted us to all hang out and chill. Well that was a bad idea on part, because a week later the friends with benefits ended and three days later they where together. They now live in another state thank god cause now I don't have to deal with them. But they think its fun to start drama and send nasty messages to me. But that is ok because I am the bigger and better person for not stooping to their level. It just really shows who you can trust to be your friends and who you can't.

Really how many times can one person hurt another. I would say only once. Then they can just take bits n pieces away. I tried to form this wall so I wouldn't get hurt but stupid me let the wall down and yup sure enough I got hurt again. Not as bad as the first time but I still got hurt in away. Or maybe I am more angry that I was stupid enough to let that person back in to my life again. Well anyways the wall is going back up. I am gonna just become a bitter mean ass hole. I just though I would warn people. Not like anyone really reads this.

Sorry if I haven't posted anything in a while. I have been busy. And also I really haven't had anything to say.
So on this note my topic for today is SHOULD THE GOVERNMENT LEGALIZE MARIJUANA?
I think yes. I have many reasons why. I want peoples opinions on this for real. I had to write a research paper for my writing class for my online classes. I hope it came out good.

Yeah hmm why does there have to be so many fake shallow closed minded lesbians out there? Can't someone just get to know someone for there inside. Not for what they look like on the outside. I wish all people where blind for real. Then no one could judge anyone for there looks. Then the world maybe a little better place.

Why is it when I find someone that wants to date me she has to live in another state. Why can't I just meet someone that lives in my state. Cause that would be way to easy. I guess life has its challenges. I wish sometimes  life would just give me a break. Ugh how I wish I could just get a break for once.

Why am I so lonely. I am not a bad person. I am not crazy in a bad way. I am smart. I am kind. I am honest. I am real. I don't like to lie. But yet I am lonely. I know I have friends but where are they. It really only seems like they are there when they want to be. So I am used to being home. Being alone. Its all good though. I guess I will do a lot of soul searching. I guess I will know myself inside and out. I just hope one days someone will find me who is just as lonely as I am.

Why is it when you tell someone you care about how you feel they run. Or they don't like you the way you like them. Why bother is what I'm thinking. Cause no matter what you seem to get hurt. Is this not true though. Like really what is the point of telling someone you care about them. I think maybe I will try and keep my feeling to myself. This is gonna be hard for me. Cause I am a caring person. But then I am wondering if it will back fire and then that person is thinking to themselves that maybe this person doesn't care about me at all. So almost no matter what I do or say I am fucked.. I thinking in the game of love there is no winner and everyone is a loser. Or you are only a winner for a short period of time...