Sorry if I haven't posted anything in a while. I have been busy. And also I really haven't had anything to say.
So on this note my topic for today is SHOULD THE GOVERNMENT LEGALIZE MARIJUANA?
I think yes. I have many reasons why. I want peoples opinions on this for real. I had to write a research paper for my writing class for my online classes. I hope it came out good.

Yeah hmm why does there have to be so many fake shallow closed minded lesbians out there? Can't someone just get to know someone for there inside. Not for what they look like on the outside. I wish all people where blind for real. Then no one could judge anyone for there looks. Then the world maybe a little better place.

Why is it when I find someone that wants to date me she has to live in another state. Why can't I just meet someone that lives in my state. Cause that would be way to easy. I guess life has its challenges. I wish sometimes  life would just give me a break. Ugh how I wish I could just get a break for once.

Why am I so lonely. I am not a bad person. I am not crazy in a bad way. I am smart. I am kind. I am honest. I am real. I don't like to lie. But yet I am lonely. I know I have friends but where are they. It really only seems like they are there when they want to be. So I am used to being home. Being alone. Its all good though. I guess I will do a lot of soul searching. I guess I will know myself inside and out. I just hope one days someone will find me who is just as lonely as I am.

Why is it when you tell someone you care about how you feel they run. Or they don't like you the way you like them. Why bother is what I'm thinking. Cause no matter what you seem to get hurt. Is this not true though. Like really what is the point of telling someone you care about them. I think maybe I will try and keep my feeling to myself. This is gonna be hard for me. Cause I am a caring person. But then I am wondering if it will back fire and then that person is thinking to themselves that maybe this person doesn't care about me at all. So almost no matter what I do or say I am fucked.. I thinking in the game of love there is no winner and everyone is a loser. Or you are only a winner for a short period of time...

Wow I told her I cared and I was starting to fall in love with her. I guess that was a mistake. Cause now I am being ignored. Why why why... This really bites. I just want someone who feels what I feel. why is that so hard to find that now a days. Oh well I will get over her like I have gotten over the others in the past. But getting hurt is a never ending game.

Okay so I am a lesbian. That's not something new. I have been one for almost 3 years now. And I still don't understand why lesbians need to label lesbians. And also why it is so hard to find another soft butch or butch to date. Yes I am a soft butch. Yes I like butch women. Well I like all women. I have dated femmes. I have dated sporty dykes. And I have also dated butch and soft butch. But what I really want to know is why its so hard to find another lesbian like me to date? Is that butches are suppose to date femmes? Really now. Can't I as a butch like the same type of lesbians. Is it a crime. Is it against the lesbian code of ethics? I really hope not. Other wise being a lesbian is gonna become boring. I'm just saying.